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Week 4
Tuesday, August 13, 2013 @ 7:01 AM
"Everybody leaves me anyway...."

A process where you're close to a friend but slowly..... you both turns into strangers.
I suppose many can relate to the picture as we all have experience this as we step into tertiary education. You lose some and you gain some. Fair win.

Have you ever felt that even those close to you is drifting away from you? And that you feel unwanted and unimportant anymore? The person you used to talk most becomes the person you rarely have a chance to talk to. Along the years i realise that sometimes, nobody can be there for you even when they say they will. I come to realise that you don't always need anyone. You only need one person and that is yourself. Since talking turns into screaming and texting turns into not talking at all, you should only depend and rely on yourself. Yes at times it may get a little bit lonely but that is life. And as much as we try to swallow the bitter truth, life is cruel. But that is just how it works. If we don't experience and if we don't feel and if it is forever perfect like in the movies, when it really happens, it will be a true dissapointment. You might lose some friends along the way but do not despair. Be yourself and mix around. What i learnt as i grow old is to never get attached to anyone. Because really.... they might just leave you any moment. 

Have you ever felt tired of being yourself? Have you ever pretended to be someone else? Some have. I do not know what and how do they do it, being somebody they're not. But every action has a reason ain't it? It might be because they want to fit in or they want to impress but don't everyone get tired? It's like every morning you wake up, you shower and you open your wardrobe, instead of looking for clothes to wear, there you are looking at a few skins of different personalities. Not knowing which to be today. 

Sometimes i don't understand my own feelings.
(As stated in the pic above)

It's like i hate you but at the same time i love you.
It's like i want to throw you off a cliff but run down immediately to catch you.
It's like i want to be killed but be the first to rescue you.

Do you feel my pain? 
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